The Gratitude of Absence
by Caitlyn Davies

A definition of gratitude is a feeling of deep appreciation. A positive emotion that involves a desire to thank another. Although I am thankful for the friends and family I have. I'm also thankful for the significant one I don't. Without him I wouldn't be the girl I am today. I wouldn't be writing this down or sharing it with others. Yet as the definition says it's a positive emotion well although I am thankful that he's not here. It's not a positive emotion it's not a sad or angry emotion in fact it's no emotion. It's not tear soaken cheeks but chin held high that I learned to help show no weakness. He left me with a wound. They say time heals all wounds. I assure you...that's wrong. It doesn't heal you just learn to hide them. You cover them up but drip by drip the blood makes it show through. Surprisingly I am okay with that. I am grateful he left me this painstaking gift. Because without it my world would be completely different. I wouldn't have the same stories to tell or the wisdom I gained. I wouldn't know what raw emotions feel like. I would just be a ditz with a smile on her face. I wouldn't appreciate all the times true happiness overwhelmed me. I would be a shallow ball of sunshine.

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